I think I skew melancholic. I have never been a person who feels very high highs or very low lows, I mostly just swim in the middle lane. I enjoy things and I dislike others, but I feel just okay most of the time. It’s not a complaint, more of an understanding of my natural state. I have to remind myself to do activities I enjoy and interact with people. Do things that aren’t just reading a book. This helps uplift my natural state a bit. It allows me to feel… more.
It’s a little bit like working out, where if you stay consistent, you will see the intended changes in your body. If I lift light weights, eventually I can lift medium weights, and once day I will lift heavy weights, and I will see my muscles even when I’m not flexing. Well, if I reach out to a friend and I make plans to see my brothers, and I try to put myself in other positions of happiness, I will over time impact my soul. If I work out my soul enough by giving it more opportunities to enjoy life, I think I will by default enjoy it more. But just like working out, I have to stick with it or I feel myself start to slip back to my baseline. I can’t slack off lest I give in to the black bile of my raw self.
Prattle Peach 